Unanswered

Truly living definitely isn’t spending every last bit of my weekend on homework.

Truly living means that I get to do what I want. Of course, this “what I want” thing is rather broad. This includes having the best time with my friends, but also going to a college with somewhat of a big scholarship.

But then, does that mean me working my small butt off every weekend for good grades is truly living? Because that’s how I’ll end up going to college with a good financial support.

Wait no, doing homework is not what I want. What I want is to go to college. Wait what?

Wait, but then does this mean that If I wanted to become a mass murderer, I am truly living by killing everyone I wish? Because I want to be killing and I am doing exactly that.

Okay, so I guess the definition of truly living depends on the person living it.

For me, truly living would be becoming a psychiatrist and working as a profiler with the police department. Sadly, this means going to college with a major in Medicine. Do I want that? Not really. But do I need that. Yep, I do. It’ll be my steps to the life of truly living.

Wait, does this mean I’ll suffer because I really won’t be truly living until I finish 11 years of college for my PhD? Because if so, truly living might not even be worth it. But then again, during those 11 years, will I be in anticipation, just waiting to become the doctor? Because if that’s the case, then maybe the 11 long years won’t be a string of boring 365.25 days. Because then, it’ll be worth it.

So truly living is something that has to be earned and may take forever to earn. But it’ll be worth it… right?

Word of the Day: orphic
(adj.) mysterious and entrancing; beyond ordinary understanding.

5 thoughts on “Unanswered

  1. Great post Hanny! I think your tone is really down to earth, allowing the reader to relate and agree with what you are saying (which I certainly did). Also that in allowing yourself to ask questions in your writing and being okay with not truly answering them you really take the reader on a journey. I feel the progression of confidence to questioning and understand you better because of it. Ending with a question also forces the reader to think past the blog post and into their own life, which is great. In paragraph seven I think “but do I need that” should end in a question not a period, and “PhD” should be “Ph.D.” but those are just minor things. Good job 🙂

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  2. Your title does a good job capturing the post. I like how you go back and forth in what truly living looks like; your paragraph breaks do a good job in showing the tension of truly living. But in your fifth paragraph you started talking about wanting to kill people being a form of truly living, and I got confused. From this post, I understand that truly living depends from person to person and has to be earned. Would you say that few people earn truly living?

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  3. I love the way you wrote this. Rhetorical questions can often be used to mask the fact that one is refusing to take a position or really communicate anything specific, but you use them very effectively here TO communicate — to explore all of the contradictions and complications inherent within the idea of “truly living” — and you ground them in specific, concrete details. Nicely done.

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